Deceptions of life or Delusions of God?

In the life we are in now, what are we? We are chasing many things. Accomplishing many missions. Doing many works. What are they? The works. What are they for?

Delusions of God, as proposed by Richard Dawkins. And many other atheists, anti-theists. Are what called by them, described by them, the delusions by us of the true meaning of god. We are deluded by the existence of god. We are played by this stance. We are monopolied by religions, on the basis of worshipping God. As stated by them, religions make people blind. Make us as though we are sheeps, following the shepherd. Some of them questioned the rationality of following ancient holy books as guidance in our life.

Are we in this kind of delusion? It is up to us to seek for the truth.

Yet what I can say, most of us are decepted. Decepted by the true meaning of lifes. Our goals are decepted. Are based on what others think as good, as cool. We are controlled. As though as computerized in a most next to perfect manner, that is; without us realizing a bit of the situation.

I've read. I've seen. I've experienced. Now I'm sharing. Think again, what paths are we choosing? Are going to? Which direction? What conclusion can be made from our daily choices?

We are going far away than the real purpose of life. The real meaning of our existence on earth. Ask many of us, now and then. Now, who cares anymore about God? Who believes in God truly? Do you? Situations changed. Because of many reasons, seek for the reasons, you'll find them. Materialism is power nowadays. Objects, pleasures are ultimate goals. When Allah banished Iblis from the heaven for his arrogance, remember one promise the Iblis made. That is to drag those sons of Adams who are not ready with knowledge with him into hells. One of the way, is through materialism, and this is what we are sufering now. Being materialistics. Through this, many purposeful-individuals manage to take advantages of the system. Influencing us. Hypnotizing us saying, fashion is good. Rush to work, rush for payment. Use up the money. Dressed your self. Your body. Non even a single time mentioned, your soul. This sickness is already in us. In our system. In our daily routine. And this is the work of the devils. Remember, there will come a time when the earth will be ruled by the dark Messiah, as stated in the Quran. This is the preparation of it. For us to be weak in terms of religions and beliefs.

And remember, those who believes in nothing will fall for anything.

*Ya Allah, give me your guidance and to my beloved family and friends too.

This emotion is,

Emotions are what made us to anything. For me, emotions can never run dry.

You can hide them. Can smile in sadness. Can laugh in miserability.

You can scold while you're feeling loving.

Consciences are controlled by emotions, mostly.

As i said, life's a graph.

Now it's pointing downward.

To how far? i wouldn't know.

For how long? i can't be sure.

But looking out of it.

I saw you. There.

Smiling. Your sweetest smile.

Telling me, it's okay to fall.

Ah, I miss the old good days of going to places,

with you beside me.

*Kisses&Hugs*

BLACK & WHITE PHOTO Contest

Oleh http://thecamerajunkie.blogspot.com/

A photo of me taken in Leamington Spa,

West Midlands, UK

=)

*Credits to Aisha Mooshux :x

Orang Melayu dan Pepatahnya

Pepatah Melayu: Genggam bara api biar sampai jadi arang.

maka Orang Melayu: Alang2 dah dengki, biar sampai ke liang lahad didendam.

Pepatah Melayu: Biar putih tulang, jangan putih mata.

maka Orang Melayu: Tak kisahlah aku cacat sebab gaduh kerana awek yang baru kenal 5-6 bulan, janji aku tak bacul.

Pepatah Melayu: Berani kerana benar, takut kerana salah.

maka Orang Melayu: Berani kerana ramai, takut bila Abang Long tak dapat tolong.

Pepatah Melayu: Kail panjang sejengkal, jangan lautan dalam hendak diduga.

maka Orang Melayu: Dah naik 'kapal', kira kail aku tu panjang dan besar la.

Pepatah Melayu: Dengar guruh di langit, air di tempayan dicurahkan.

maka Orang Melayu: Dengar tender masuk, belum mula projek, sofa di rumah, down payment Camry baru, tiket melancong ke Disneyland Paris siap di beli secara kredit.

Habis.

Melancholic conversations

Boy: ...

Girl: but you distanced yourself from me. I suffered because of that.

Boy: I don't want you to depend solely on me. There might be days when we won't have each other anymore.

Girl: But I need you. I really need you. You shouldn't give me hope.

Boy: I'm not sure.

Girl: Not sure of what?

Boy: The future and what lies.

Girl: Or you're not sure of your love?

Boy: My love is my future.

Girl: Why must you fall in love with me then? Why do you have to make me love you so much? I was suffering. Waiting for you.

Boy: I made you suffer all the time. I know that.

Girl: I thought you never knew. Never realize.

Boy: I always realize. I smiled, but deep in me. I'm not sure...

*I can't afford to lose you. I can't afford to make you cry again. Therefore, it's better you find someone who doesn't.

Dusk's and the Uni of Warwick

In front of IKEA
Tak jadi. haha.
City Centre
In the Uni of Warwick
Lights and Leaves
Old British Building
Bokeh tangan aku
Bokeh lagi. susah payah. haha

Autumn in warwickshire

City Centre

Model: Haikal/Dodu

99pence store aka kedai Rm2(in M'sia)

Seats and people

Model: Haikal, Shidi and Safuan

Autumn 1

Autumn 2

Autumn 3

Autumn 4

Autumn 5

List of Gigs in Coventry for the whole year!

Fresher's helpers

Model: AG

Reverie's back & Coventry

Model: Saiful

On our way to the bus station

Couple

On our way out of our hostel

In my room

*First timer. Cheers! =)

Analisis Politik Amatur

Setakat ini aku sudah banyak membaca hasil tulisan orang-orang yang dah kira lama dalam penulisan politik ini. Dalam banyak-banyak baca, banyak juga pemikiran sendiri hasil daripada interpretasi sendiri yang aku dapat. Aku tulis di sini. Malas nak cemarkan blog utama aku dengan politik. tak boleh. Kalau tulis review belah berat ke UMNO nanti kena pangkah dengan geng pembangkang. Sebaliknya pun sama. Tak pasal maki-makian akan menghuni. Aku tak mahu itu. Kerana aku tahu rata-rata orang kita masih ramai yang rendah akal. Tak pandai berhujah menggunakan akal untuk 'amaze' kan orang. Sebaliknya mereka ibarat lagi banyak cakap, lagi ramai orang tahu mulut kau tu berbau. Faham pengibaratan aku ni?

Ok. Mula-mula yang paling penting aku dengar-dengar gosip-gosip professional yang mengatakan kaum Cina tegar (tegar dan bukannya semua) mahu mengambil alih pemerintahan Malaysia daripada tampuk Melayu. usaha DAP adalah untuk memecahbelahkan Melayu dan nanti mereka akan join dengan MCA untuk ambilalih pemerintahan dalam PRU akan datang. Ini bukan aku kata! ini orang kata. Aku tak nak dengar orang komen nanti 'kau ni buat berita bukan-bukan'. Ini bukan berita daripada aku tapi daripada apa yang aku dengar dan baca.

Pendapat aku, perkara ni tak mustahil. Siapa tak nak kuasa? Mereka ni pun tak terkecuali. Kalau betul, orang melayu kena laju-laju bangun tidur dan siap-siap gosok gigi untuk hadap benda ni. Sama-sama bersatu lah pokok pangkalnya.

Aku kata sekarang benda dah semakin mengarut. Yang claim otai belah sini dok keluar hujah-hujah yang tak ada 'reference'. sekadar pendapat saja. lepas tu mesti ada ramai penyokong bahagian lemah akal beri komentar berbentuk kata-kata yang kalau mak kau dengar, mesti kena cili punya. Sampai kebas bibir. yang claim otai belah sana pun sama. Lepas tu berbalah-balah. Dia maki dia, dia maki mak dia, dia maki ayah dia, dia kena maki. Semua maki. Bagus, memang nilai ni pun yang penat-penat diajar oleh sekolah dan keluarga kau dulu kan? Apakata kau salahkan kerajaan lagi sebab hasil daripada pendidikan formal selama wajib 11 tahun itu dapat lahirkan rakyat yang laju maki-memaki. Salah sistem pendidikan setting kerajaan lagi ke? atau salah kau yang tak mahu mahu belajar tatasusila. Kau pergilah baring tengah jalan lagi buat demonstrasi tanpa arah tujuan.

Aku sebenarnya tak organise point-point aku. Tulis ja apa yang teringat. Cuma apa aku rasa paling menyayat hati bukan kerana sedih tapi kerana tercengang tengok pakcik2 yang claim lagi banyak asam garam daripada aku baring tengah jalan halang kenderaan. Pakcik tak sedarkah pakcik tu jadi alat mainan gunaan pemimpin-pemimpin berdasarkan niat politikal semata-mata. Huh. Tak patriotik langsung! Tambah lagi yang kes bakar bendera. Budak remaja pakai helmet. Hadui. Mungkin dia warganegara thailand. Itu dia tak faham nilai bendera yang dia bakar. Aku rasa tindakan itu kurang berakal. Sekadar buat kita kena gelak di paper-paper antarabangsa sahaja. Tindakan yang mungkin mengundang opportunis luar untuk masuk campur tangan.

Kalau kes 'negarakuku' hasil dendangan seorang anak muda yang seangkatan dengan apa tu yang bawa H1N1 tu. punca tu. Kalau kes negarakuku kau marah ramai-ramai. Apa beza kes bakar bendera dengan kes negarakuku itu? Mungkin kau halalkan pembakar itu sebab bertepatan dengan motif politikal kau? Sampah betul perjuangan politik kau kalau begitu caranya.

Memang bagus betul agenda buat kacau setiap hari menghalang proses hari-hari akibat demonstrasi tanpa arah tuju. Memang bagus.

Dah habis sebab mula lapar.

-reveriemalaya-

Why is it so hard to touch the moon?

(Verse)
I close my eyes and listen.
All the words were sprinkled in me.
My lips, they started moving.
I realized I was singing with my heart,
singing with my heart.

(Pre-chorus)
Now I'm whispering the meaning.
And as it was resonating,
I begin to realize,
and understood.

(Chorus)
You gave me butterflies when I think of you,
yet I still don't know where are we heading from here.
Can you tell me?

(Verse)
My eyes' still close I'm listening.
Trying to hear your answer.
Through every words you uttered.
I realized I was hoping with my heart,
hoping with my heart.

(Pre-chorus)
Now I'm whispering the meaning.
And as it was resonating,
I begin to realize,
and understood.

(Chorus)
You gave me butterflies when I think of you,
yet I still don't know where are we heading from here.
Can you tell me?

Why is it so hard to touch the moon?
Why is it so hard to touch the moon?

*Finalised. Ilham sekarang tengah tak ada comma. Mencurah2. =)

Lunacy (finalised)

Lunacy

Staring at the ceiling talking to myself
yet the only answer I get is the heartbeats,
resonating in my ears.

Since there is too much of nothing,
my head is devoured by this emptiness,
and I, I don't know why.

(Chorus)
Now I'm talking, to myself (2x)

I tried to pull myself together
with what is left of me,
and the pieces of my memories is scattered in the memories.

Sometimes I wake up in the morning
with the thoughts of you filling my head,
and still I don't know if they are real.

(Chorus)
Now I'm talking, to myself (2x)

(Music - climax)

(Plucking)
Now that you are listening,
I try to say this as beautiful as the meaning
of your existence to me.
But my words failed me,
as I'm just a puppet and,
my feeling is the ventriloquist.

(Music - climax)

(Outro)
You are my Lunacy
You are my Lunacy
You are my Lunacy...

-end-

* I recorded this piece but can't upload it as the mmc of the phone is small and can't suit into the mmc reader on my pc. Still trying to get it on here. The quality of the recording sucks, though.
*oh ya! Credits to Luna too for writing this piece for me. =)

Syafaat?

Kehidupan manusia.

Seorang gadis yang menemui seorang lelaki. Gadis menyerahkan segalanya kerana cinta. Difikirannya(Biasalah jika ternoda. Bukan aktiviti lumrah ke sekarang ini?) Tanpa disangka, awan putih mulus itu bertukar menjadi awan berat dan hitam yang menakutkan dengan petir serta guruh.

Terlalu biasa, segala yang dirancang. Terlalu biasa berlaku. Padahal apa yang tercatit adalah gadis yang baik untuk lelaki yang baik. Tidakkah kau-kau percaya kepada karma?

Tapi apa nak dikisahkan. memang agenda yahudi untuk menyongsangkan umat Islam. Syafaat? apa itu syafaat? Ramai antara kau yang tidak tahu. Lupa. Syafaat? Apa itu syafaat? Apa jadi sekiranya tiada lagi syafaat untuk kau. Hukum-hukum dan garis-garis batas itu sudah kau langkaui. Namun kau berkata, bukankah sudah menjadi trend sekarang ini, untuk bermain dengan kemaluan belakang wanita? Adapun kau tidak tahu. Disitulah letaknya batasan syafaat Rasulullah. Kerana kau pekak dan jelik. Kau tidak menurut garis panduan Quran dan hadis. Tapi kau lebih suka ikut kata-kata selebriti di movie-movie blockbuster.

Cerita ini bukan untuk publisiti meluas mahupun untuk keuntungan. Ia adalah untuk menyedarkan kau dan kau sekalian. Dimana letaknya value kita sebagai umat Islam. Dan value itulah yang akan menetapkan kita.

*Bersyukur aku kerana masih belum menerima istidraj.

Unfinished - random thought

Sitting alone in my room, feeling the time passes by.
With the sound of wind gusting by, it seems empty.
Yet my mind is filled and full and I'm trying my best, I'm trying my best.
To make use of everything that I have and what is left.

Now, I'm talking to myself,
I'm talking to myself.

This is the time when I need you the most.
This is the moment to take my step.

*Random thoughts filled and it's making me hard to complete this piece. huh.

Socialisation

There are four socialisation process that help prepare us through the life course. They are:
- Primary socialisation(Family usually)
- Secondary socialisation(Schools, peers and media)
- Anticipatory socialisation(Learning future role)
- Adult socialisation(Getting ready from role-taking to role-making)

There are many agents of socialisation. They are:
- Family
- Peers
- School
- Media
- Religious instituition

Family helps to develop the mechanical and motor skills of the child. Parents usually will enforce good values to their child. They will teach also the basic skills needed by their child to face the outside world. Mechanical skills are skills like eating using fork and spoon, wearing shirt, table ethics and many more physical skills. Motor skills involve the mind. Thinking skills and perceptions towards the society are among the examples of motor skills. In other words, family helps to prepare the child mentally and physically before the child advance into real life.

School is a place where the secondary socialisation will continue. Schools involve socialisation process mostly with peers and teachers. Usually there will be less emotions attached. Schools teach the child of formal education. Here, new knowledge will be attained. Schools will also involve in instilling values that the society perceives as good like punctuality, tolerance and respecting other people especially adults. Here, the child will get more experiences and help to develop their maturity. Their way of thinking will be influenced too.

Friends or peers is another important agent of socialisation. Most of the time, peers are the people of the same age and status. Peers can teach them many things that family cannot. With peers, the child will feel more accepted and therefore the child will be comfortable to spend time with his or her peers. Through peers, they child can learn to mingle around and learn the culture of the friends. However, this stage is very crucial as this stage is the time where most of the bad influences will be imposed. The reason for this is the child can be influenced by his or her peers easily into doing things that is new. This is because of the inquisitive instinct that exists in the child.

Should children be exposed to early socialisation?
My answer is a straightforward yes. This answer will be justified by the following reasons:
- Develop maturity in thoughts
- Avoid future culture shock
- Acquire new knowledge
- Prepare them for the real world
- Nurture good social skills

*However it is better for them to get the guidance of their parents. As I believe that most parents only want the best for their children.

Thank you

One of the population issues is over-population. Discuss the factors that lead to over-population.

There are many factors that may result to overpopulation.

Gender Identity is mostly determined by your society

Gender identity stresses on the characteristics of each gender. As I understand, we should only have two main gender which is male and female. Let's count out any Khunsa because it is not so significant and I don't want to discuss about any. There is this one thing that I observe. It is the theory of the society in terms of gendered identities. In other words, how do the society views each gender differently.

The first thing is regarding the reinforcement. Take example of your parents. It wil be more obvious if you have a combination of males and females siblings. Your parents would practice different reinforcement in terms of rewarding and punishing their children.
As for example, a girl might not receive physical punishment as how a boy would be punished. And the reward system differs too. A boy may be given a ball as a reward while a girl may get a barbie doll.

The second thing is in terms of the division of labour. The responsibilities of each child is different. A boy's responsibility is different from a girl. Let me make it clear for you by providing an example, if there are guests who come to your house, a girl is more expected to prepare and serve drinks. They will not expect a boy to prepare and serve the refreshments though in some cases boys will do it too. (As in my case, because I don't have any girl siblings)

On the other hand, clothing for boys and girls are different too. This is a clear illustration of how the style of dressing differs for both genders. Boys will never wear dress in public(Normal boys I mean). Girls are considered as impolite if they wear shorts and a singlet.

In most family, the bedrooms are gendered too. See for yourself, girls usually use flowers as the main theme of their bedroom. Curtains are pink. Bedsheets too. Why? Because these themes are closely related to girls. Meanwhile, boys don't use flowers nor colourful toys illustrations as their main theme. Some of them don't even have a theme. They just wear what is there for them to wear.

The next different that is quite obvious is the way how your parents treat you. Parents are more likely to get involve in rough games with their boys while girls don't. While a boy will play passing football with his father, a girl will not get involve in such game in most cases. Why? Again because of how the society perceive you. A society doesn't normally see a girl who likes to play football as normal.

The last thing that I want to discuss touches on the types of present that a boy and a girl receive. What will you want as a birthday present if you are a boy? A cute and cuddly teddy bear? What if you are a girl. Would you want a jet plane model as your birthday present? In most instances you don't. Why? Again it is caused by how you believe what is appropriate for you.

That's all. I learn about this from my lecturer and from what I observe, I agree to these points. You are what you are today because of the kind of bringing up that you get. This includes, the view of the society and how it treats you according to your gender.

*Cheers. =)

Dauh bin Kuat Injured Bila Main Rugbi

Believe in what you want to believe.

Have you ever heard of this statement? It's a statement that I'm for and not against to. I consider as right. Whatever the things are, you will see it as what you believe it is. One example is as such:

There is someone whose name is 'Dauh bin Kuat Injured Bila Main Rugbi'. Let's just call him Dauh(Not the real name yeah!) Dauh was given some cash by his parents and he decided to buy a pair of shoes. New shoes. Very pricey. More than a hundred. Then on the evening, he went to play rugby with some of his friends. He won. then he said,"Mestilah menang, kasut baru."
Hence, he believed that his new shoes caused him to win because it gave him the confidence to go the extra mile that he went to win. However, look at it in a different way. Let us say that he losed the match and he said,"I'm still not comfortable with the new shoes. That's why I can't perform." So, now what do you think.

The example might not be so significant. Yet, I suppose that you'll get what I mean?

*Let's discuss.

Originaliti dan fake

Originaliti dan fake itu merupakan dua perkara yang amat berbeza. Ironinya, kedua selalu disalah tafsirkan. Apa yang ori dan apa yang fake? Aku pasti tak boleh bagi definisi nya kerana aku ni bukan bertahap sufi. Kalau kao berminat nak tahu, rajinlah cari sendiri.

Yang aku faham ianya boleh diambil kira sebagai satu konsep memuji nilai estetika sesuatu seni. Contohnya karya seni itu mempunyai originaliti. Maka ia di'regard'kan sebagai unik dan mungkin indah. Seni pun merangkumi pelbagai. Definisi seni adalah tanpa had. Balik kepada originaliti, jujur aku mengaku aku kekurangan originaliti. Kerana aku dipengaruhi segala macam pemikiran-pemikiran daripada luar. Baik ideologi apa pun yang aku dengar, baca dan alami, pasti akan mempengaruhi. Justure, banyak daripada penulisan2 aku telah dipengaruhi. Berampur aduk. Tidak original.
Mungkin unik tetapi tidak akan original.

Original dan unik itu juga sesuatu yang berbeza. Unik boleh diperolehi daripada proses adaptasi sesuatu yang original. Karya Mona Lisa yang original itu boleh dimasukkan unsur2 lain oleh pelukis baru dan menjadikannya unik secara tersendiri tapi tak mungkin original.

Dalam musik pun banyak terdapat unsur2 original yang lari daripada paksi. Mungkin original namun sebenarnya pengaruhnya banyak. Bunyi2 yang diambil banyak. Bagi aku itu tidak original tapi mungkin unik. Dan unik selalunya mendatangkan kesan kepada diri aku.

Jika kao tahu apa itu originaliti yang ada sekarang ni, boleh beritahu aku? Supaya aku boleh memberi penghakiman aku sendiri.